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I rarely reach out for something like this, but my nephew's having a hard time and so is my immediate family right now. It's not a health issue, but It's just been a real stressful time. So, if you all can just send some prayers, good thoughts to gnomes or eskimos, wish upon a star, whatever.

We really just need some positivity sent our way.

Thanks.

Love to you all.

Kat

This is what my report said about me:

Agreeableness
You are clearly a compassionate person; you believe that you should do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and you know that friends help their friends. But with you compassion is just one side of the coin; the other being a side that also expects others to hold up their end of the bargain. So you help others but it is with the expectation that others don't take advantage of you or try to put one over on you. In short, you expect others to treat you as you treat them.

And for those people who do ask for help when they should have taken responsibility for themselves? This is the time when your more hard-edged side comes out. You are skeptical of people when they expect others to bail them out of trouble; if they got themselves into the bind, they should work their way out of the trouble. If it's an emergency, or if it's a friend who has been there for you when you have had hard times, you are there in a quick minute. But you are a discerning person and to you there is a big difference between an emergency and a self-inflicted wound. You just look at the facts: how the situation developed, how serious the situation, and how they can or cannot get through things on their own. The history you have with the person and with similar situations will inform you whether this is or is not a time for you to get involved.

You also have some limits when it comes to being with people. Sure some people need to be with others all the time and seem to get recharged by helping out most anyone else. But that's not you. You know that you do best if you spend a fair amount of time on your own. Not that you are a loner, just that time spent by yourself is not wasted at all with you. You've come to understand that if you don't take good care of yourself, eventually you'll be not good to anyone, including yourself or others.

So your compassion is tempered by realism. Your sympathy for people in trouble is balanced by a critical evaluation of how they got themselves to the place they are. And you've learned to take good care of yourself, so you have something to give to your friends or others truly in need.

Openness
Like someone who can sleep comfortably on either side of the bed, you are equally at home with ideas and beliefs that you have held for a long time and with new ways of thinking and believing that grow out of your intellectual curiosity.

Your sense of who you are and what your place is in the world around you rests on values and principles that are the solid ground you walk upon. You've tested them, they work for you, and much of the time you are content to trust them, that is, until some provocative new idea slips in from a conversation, book or some flight of your active imagination. "Hmmmm. What's this. Never thought of it before." And off you go, exploring.

Since you love to learn, you've always been teachable; you absorb new information, which means you are well-educated in things that matter to you. Sometimes your intellectual exploring will lead you back to where you started; the "next new thing" proves too shallow or impractical to you. But once in a while a new idea or belief will dislodge you from the ground you've stood upon; it is so compelling and persuasive that you step away from the tried-and-true and embrace this notion that is brand new to you.

Because you hold both solid beliefs and are open to new ideas, you are accepting of other people and other ways of thinking and believing. You are flexible enough to listen to something new and different, or something outside of your comfort zone; if it works for you, you'll take it in, and if not, you'll let it go. In this sense, you know who you are: you are neither closed-minded nor wildly open-minded, but walk somewhere near the middle of the intellectual road.

Emotional Stability
You are an emotional person. In some ways, we are all emotional; we feel joy, anger, sadness and fear; some of us more powerfully than others - and you more powerfully than most. Your emotions are closer to the surface, and your feelings more obvious to you than is the case with most people. You've got your life in a good place, your dominant mood is upbeat, and unless life has been particularly trying for you, you greatly enjoy the richness and intensity of life that being so open with your emotions brings you.

Sure there are times when your feelings come very close to the surface, and life becomes more complicated. At these times you may grow self-conscious, or feel a bit anxious. But all in all, you much prefer being open with your emotions, breathing in all that life offers, than shutting down any part of your emotional experience. Granted, there may be times when these emotions are hard but you realize that is part of life. And more often than not you feel enriched by your emotions, by your ability to be open to all that life brings you. You know that even when you have those times that get you down, there will be even more times when you see life in ways that others just can't.

Conscientousness
Rules are made to be broken, plans are made to be changed, and schedules are made to be altered. Anyone who's been around you for very long knows that is just part of the way you live. You don't like to be hemmed in by someone's idea of how a job should be done or a goal should be accomplished. Where others assume that the way to get something done is to follow whatever guidelines have been laid out, your idea of how to best get things done often involves making it up as you go along. You are as variable as a hawk in full flight - but like the hawk, you keep your eyes on the prize; even in the midst of turmoil you have a sense of where you need to go. You just have your own way of getting there.

To the surprise of some of your friends and associates, you do get things done, though. But maybe not on the timeline someone else had hoped for. In fact, you likely have a reputation as a legendary procrastinator, not because you're lazy or disinterested, but because following your instincts and creative sense takes longer. But the upside is that often your instincts turn the ordinary into something quite amazing; and some of the times, when you get everything just right, the ordinary original plans become an extraordinary achievement.

Extraversion
You are generally a modest and private person. You are thoughtful and careful before making decisions and offering opinions. You most likely have a number of good friends and you greatly enjoy spending time with them. But even with your friends you tend not to be terribly outgoing; you open up, but slowly, and share yourself, but in a careful way. For you quality is much more important than quantity. When it comes to your social life you are more comfortable with deeper, well nurtured friendships than with having a social calendar that rivals that of a socialite.

Whether at work or in social situations, you neither need nor particularly like the spotlight. In fact, it is often the case that your friends and colleagues think you deserve more credit than you take and more attention than you get. But that isn't really your style. Again, you don't crave flash and attention, it's quality and depth you treasure.

This isn't to say that you don't want to be around people or that you aren't good in relationships and in social situations. In fact, you need the companionship of people, you just prefer quiet conversations with a friend or a small group to finding a new party to go to every week. Your social encounters balance out the side of you that likes your own company and having enough time to think and reflect. But you do find that life has a better rhythm for you when there is enough quiet time to deliberate on your own so that you are refreshed for your next encounter with friends and colleagues.

Go here and take this personality test! Be truthful. None of this "Well, ideally I would do this.."crap! Let me know what it says about you and if you think it's true.

It's been a little over a week since I quit my job.

Am I happy? Not really, but I'm more content than I have been in a while. I'm sleeping better, eating better, my body doesn't ache from stress or overcompensating when carrying furniture. I do kinda miss that furniture, though. My only work out. Now I have to work out for reals! Maybe some of the managers will let me lug around their furniture sometimes if I ask them.

So, since I've had a little bit more time on my hands, I've been cleaning like a mad woman! I found out that I own 30 pairs of jeans and that I could clothe people's feet nationwide with all of my socks. They've got their own bottom drawer. It's a huge bottom drawer, too.

I even delved into the stacks of paperwork on my counter and in the crevices of my room....(the office is next and I'm going to light everything on fire, I know it).

And, lo and behold, what did I find? Letters, postcards, regular cards, notes, etc. from people and to people that I never sent. Oops...

Of the people who've sent me things over the years: Carmen Rivera, Jennifer Podagrosi, Jackie Ramirez, Edsel Pete, Nicole Harris, Stephanie Sanchez, Marissa Garvey, Jessica Placencia, my cousin Tinkey, Sheldon, Mr. & Mrs. Reno, Matt from Cali, Jess from Canada and various people from my family.

I can't believe I kept all of them, but then again, I can totally believe I kept them all. I just love correspondence that much!

And in keeping with that theme, I want to write people letters, or send you postcards. Do you want a regular card? Maybe I'll send you a drawing, or a picture. Or a trinket. Who knows, you may just get a box of junk. It'll be like a Ladmo Bag giveaway.

So, send me your home address, or wherever you'd like me to send it. I don't care who.

In other news, the movie "The Eye" didn't suck as much as I thought it would. Sure, it had moments of suckitude, but it wasn't horrible. It actually had a story. Whether they told it very well, I'll leave that up to you if you ever see it.

If anyone knows, or has any information about any job opportunities that are available, let me know.

I'm pretty much burnt out on the retail gig.

Go F yourself...by going to my party. Be there!

Your First Pairing: What You Want and How You Get It

The first two colors you selected make up your first pairing. According to Luscher, these are the colors that you're most drawn to. The order of your selections here are particularly significant. The first color you choose represents the method you rely on to achieve your goals. The second color represents what your actual goal is. As a pair, these first two colors signify your dreams and the methods you employ to make them a reality.




You chose Red first and Blue second. This means that you long for a life that is active and filled with varied experiences. You need a close, intimate relationship that provides you with both sexual and emotional fulfillment. Out of all test-takers, 5.60% select these two colors in the first and second positions.

Your Second Pairing: How You're Coping Now

The third and forth color you chose comprise your second pairing. Luscher believed that your second pairing represents your present set of circumstances and how you are responding to them.




Green/Black is your second pairing. In relation to what's going on in your life, you're pursuing your own goals with determination. Because of this, you refuse to make any compromises. Among others who take this test, 2.0% chose this color combination in the third and forth positions.



Your Third Pairing: What You Have in Reserve

Your third pairing is based on the fifth and sixth colors you picked. Luscher believed these are the colors you're indifferent to; you neither prefer them nor reject them. The colors in this pairing represent the behaviors that you're repressing. It's also possible you may not be choosing them because you feel they'd be inappropriate. Once your situation changes, you could draw on these behaviors as you see fit.




Your third pairing is Gray/Violet. According to Luscher's theories, this indicates that you're holding back to avoid conflict. While you're willing to become emotionally attached, you currently feel isolated and lonely. At the same time, your egocentric nature makes you easily offended. 1.41% of test takers share this combination for the fifth and sixth positions.



Your Fourth Pairing: What You're Rejecting

The final two colors you selected make up your highly significant fourth pairing. According to Luscher's theories, these are the colors you are rejecting, which means you're turning away from the qualities they represent. These colors represent a need that you're repressing due to your life situation. Luscher believed that the colors you like the least reveal the most about you.




Yellow/Brown is your fourth and final pairing. This means you're suppressing your need for others, assuming a stance of indifference to hide your fears of inadequacy. You long to achieve a higher status and the esteem of allies who share your high standards, but instead you feel isolated. You have only contempt for those who criticize you. Among other test-takers, 4.93% share this color combination in the seventh and eighth positions.

It was so good seeing everyone the other night. You don't know how much good it did my heart.

And for once, I didn't get pissy when I sucked at bowling.
I think I rebruised my finger, though. haha!

It's hard to believe that in 2 more years it'll be my 10 year high school reunion. 4 1/2 until I'm 30. Where did the time go?

So, I'm in love with that geeky show "Heroes" on NBC Mondays.

Tonight a character asked, "Would you rather have a life of meaning or happiness?"

The character he asked said he'd want both.
To which he replied: "You can't have both."

A life of happiness would involve not looking to the past, or too far in the future, just living in the present.

A life of meaning would involve not being able to forget the past and worrying constantly about the future.

Which would you choose?

Today I was told that I was "comfortable in my own skin." That I "got it." Well, for the past two week's, I've felt anything but comfortable in my own skin and I have no idea what the hell I've got. If anything, I feel as though I've lost it all.

I wish I could kick my own ass.
I already am internally, I suppose.

I didn't quite believe them when they told me I had high expectations.

Memo to self: Try to be more realistic. Quit being so selfish. Work is not your life.

Ok, so I'm hanging on by a thread, barely seeing anyone or knowing what the hell is going on in everyone's lives. I hate this unnecessary evil. I feel like the kid who went to sleep early and missed all the late night festivities. :-(

In other news, the job is doing great. I still don't know if I'm doing so great in it. Everyone seems to think so, but time and results will tell. It's still a new challenge and project for me. I'm not lookin' for miracles. I'm just looking to accomplish a little at a time. Sometimes it's difficult to see the big picture when you want to just get caught up in the details and take it day by day. But it's all good when I come home and pass out from exhaustion.

I make it seem like I run marathons, or save lives every day.

If I make a few customers happy and have an enjoyable experience shopping while trying to have the store run as smoothly as possible, I can say it's been a good day, though.

Dammit, I need a life.

So, how is every little thing in everyone else's life?

So, I have this wish list on Amazon that I add things to. I just use it as a benchmarker for stuff I want, but can't get right now. That way when I can afford it, I don't have to look for it. Anyways....

I e-mailed this off to a couple of people 'cuz they asked me to. If you want it, here it is. If you have the time, make one of your own so that I can buy you the best presents ever!

1. How old will you be in five years?
30

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Everyone at work.

3. How tall are you?
a lil' under 5'3"

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
The end of the holiday season.

5. What's the last movie you saw?
Lil' Miss Sunshine

6. Who was the last person you called?
Elisa

7. Who was the last person to call you?
Matt

8. What was the last text message you receiveved?
Sheldon: "Now I'm watching Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead."

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
Elisa

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
Text if I'm in the middle of something, call if I have time.

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Sleeping

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
Divorced

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
3 hours ago.

14. What color are your eyes?
Brown

15. What time did you wake up today?
7:11

16. What are you wearing right now?
jeans and a tank top

17. What is your favorite christmas song?
White Christmas(Bing Crosby) or Have Yourself a Merry Lil' Christmas (Judy Garland)

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
Anywhere near a beach/coastal, or Midtown NY

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
Stuck in traffic on the freeways.

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere
Just about anywhere.

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Happy or content in my life.

22. Do you tan or burn?
Both

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
The killer from Truman Capote's book "In Cold Blood"

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
Alex doing the Goth Talk/Bud-weis-er Frog parody from SNL

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
5

26. How big is your bed?
Twin

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Desktop

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Both

29. What color are your sheets?
I wanna say grey. But I could be wrong. They could be striped.

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
3

31. What is your favorite season?
Autumn

32. What do you like about fall?
The feeling of it all, change in weather.

33. What do you like about winter?
The coziness.

34. What do you like about the summer?
A good sweat, bright, happy feelings.

35. What do you like about spring?
Vacations.

36. How many states have you lived in?
1

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
Phoenix

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Bare feet in doors. Boots out.

39. Are you a social person?
Not really. I just have a lot of energy to burn.

40. What was the last thing you ate?
A peppercorn turkey and baby swiss sangwich on sourdough.

41. What is your favorite restaurant?
Chelsea's Kitchen

42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Cherry Garcia

43. What is your favorite dessert?
Tiramisu

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Clam chowder

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Grape

46. Do you like Chinese food?
I would sucky, sucky, fuckie, fuckie, if I could.

47. Do you like coffee?
Eraly in the morning or with dessert.

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
1 or 2

49. What do you drink in the morning?
Soda/Coffee

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
The right side, I guess.

52. Do you know how to play poker?
Used to. I haven't played in a really long time, though.

53. Do you like to cuddle?
Depends on the person.

54. Have you ever been to Canada?
Yep and I want to go back to Toronto

55. Do you have an addictive personality?
Not really.

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Eat out. And my mind's not in the gutter for once.

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
I can't remember. I might. July 4th, anyone?

59. Do you want kids?
Someday.

60. Do you speak any other languages?
A sad bit of spanish. I can pick up some Navajo, too. Not much, though. Dirty words.

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
In my right arm. Surgery.

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
No.

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Ocean.

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
Window.

65. Do you know how to drive stick?
No

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Food.

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
My cartilage piercing and my feather necklace made from part of a glacier.

68. What is your favorite TV show?
Law & Order: SVU

69. Can you roll your tongue?
Oh can I!

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
You all make me laugh.

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No.

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
I had Shakira's "Hips Don't Lie" as an inside joke for me and Sheldon. But i recently changed it to Goldfrapp's "Oh La La"

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
Yep.

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
My hair. (I don't care what you say, Suzy Pappas!) LOL!

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
Yes.

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I used to only be able to sleep with them closed, but I leave one side open now.

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
I want to say a swarm of bees 'cuz I've never been stung before. Plus, bees wouldn't smell like bear's do.

78. Do you flirt a lot?
I was told that I flirted with everyone, but these days I don't think I even have that.

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Honey mustard.

80. What is your favorite food?
Chinese or Seafood.

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
I was able to on my KIA. I haven't tried with my current one, yet.

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
First one this year.

83. Have you ever run out of gas?
No.

84. What is your usual bedtime?
2/3 am.

85. What was the last book you read?
Dry by Augusten Burroughs

86. Do you read the newspaper?
Rarely.

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
TIME

89. Do you watch soap operas?
Only if I'm so bored or I want a good laugh.

90. Do you dance in the car?
Sometimes. I get really focused when I drive, though.

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
97.5 fm

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
Hudson Leick(actress)

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
Sam. Schedule. 6 or 7 days. Xmas week or week after?

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
Pear

95. What is your favorite board game?
Monopoly

97. When was the last time you attended church?
For a funeral last December.

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
Mrs. Bonfante or Senor Garcia.

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
I don't know...a week?

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
Sheldon. He invited me over for dinner.

we decided to bring the party to you! ;-)



Happy Birthday, hon!
Hope it's a memorable one.

Peace out!

I'm going into work late today. I just had to sleep in. My body aches. I'm on the verge of getting sick. *sigh*

But we have this meeting on Sunday that I need to help plan.
Meeting in a Box. Yum!


I really want a sangwich from the Duck & Decanter. I might head over there before I go to work. If only Cara worked there still. I miss seeing her shining, sarcastic face. Woulda perked up my day.

And I have tomorrow off which is glorious! And I'm taking a week off probably the week after the next. Gonna see how well my car does on a trip to the beach. I can't wait!

Tonight: Maybe heading over to my friend Elisa's house to drink some vino.

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I'm feeling incredibly exhausted and a little sick. I know if I slow down, my body is just gonna give in. Give me life!

I had a training meeting today which I loved. There's something about a meeting of the minds, a sharing of experiences and knowledge. It gets my engines revving.

I'm feeling inconsistant and unfocused. I need to get down to brass tacks, but I don't know if I have the energy to fulfill that currently.

I bought some lip balm from AJ's infused with Caffeine, Green Tea and B12. After using it repeatedly, I felt a rush of blood to the head. And then I read, Warning: Use moderately. I almost threw it, but then thought better of it. It might've exploded.

I don't want to fly away like I usually do, but I know I need to break free for a bit to regroup. I want to box away my/the demons and see the light of day.

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I'm supposed to be finishing up a project for work on my computer. But I'm procrastinating like hell.

I grabbed some journal icons from various places, but I can't remember where. I'm going to have to retrace my steps. Can't go without giving props where they're due.

I also have a wine trade show to go to at the Biltmore. I can't remember what time, though. I'm gonna have to finish up this project so I can call work and ask. Crap.

And then hopefully dinner with the other kids.

Shit! It's almost 2!